Rev. Dr. Paul Jinadu
On the fifth day his reputation was touched. As he was thinking of men of the Bible who were full of the Holy Ghost, and particularly John the Baptist, the Lord said to him, “Then I may live through you the kind of life I lived through him.” A Nazarite clothed in camel’s hair, living in a desert! Even in this, or what might be its modern equivalent, a real decision had to be made. “If I live My life in you, and that is the kind of life I choose, you can’t stop Me,” was the Lord’s word on it. As the Saviour was despised, he must be willing to be the same.
By Friday night each point had been faced. He knew exactly what he was offered: the choice between temporal and eternal gain. The Spirit summed the issue up for him: “On no account will I allow you to cherish a single thought of self, and the life I will live in you will be one hundred percent for others. You will never be able to save yourself, any more than the Saviour could when He was on earth. Now, are you willing?” Rees was to give a final answer.
That night a friend said to him, “If some of us come over after the meeting, will you tell us of your position in Christ?” At once the Spirit challenged him: “How can you do that? You have seen the position of the overcomers, but you have not entered in. I have been dealing with you for five days; you must give Me your decision by six o’clock tonight and remember, your will must go. On no account will I allow you to bring in a crosscurrent. Where I send you, you will go; what I say to you, you will do.” It was the final battle on the will.
“I asked Him for more time,” Rees continued, “but He said, ‘You will not have a minute after six o’clock.’ When I heard that it was exactly as if a wild beast was roused in me. ‘You gave me a free will,’ I answered, ‘and now You force me to give it up.’ ‘I do not force you,’ He replied, ‘but for three years have you not been saying that you are not your own, and that you wanted to give your life back to the Saviour as completely as He gave His for you?’
“I climbed down in a second. The way I had said it was an insult to the Trinity. ‘I am sorry,’ I told Him, ‘I didn’t mean what I said.’ ‘You are not forced to give up your will,’ He said again, ‘but at six o’clock I will take your decision. After that you will never get another chance.’ It was my last offer; my last chance! I saw that Throne (Rev. 3:21) and all my future for eternity going. I said, ‘Please forgive me, I want to do it.’
“Once more the question came, ‘Are you willing?’ It was ten minutes to six. I wanted to do it, but I could not. Your mind is keen when you are tested, and in a flash it came to me, ‘How can self be willing to give up self?’ Five to six came. I was afraid of those last five minutes. I could count the ticks of the clock. Then the Spirit spoke again. ‘If you can’t be willing, would you like Me to help you? Are you willing to be made willing?’
“‘Take care,’ the enemy whispered. ‘When a stronger person than yourself is on the other side, to be willing to be made willing is just the same as to be willing.’ As I was thinking upon that point I looked at the clock. It was one minute to six. I bowed my head and said, ‘Lord, I am willing.'” Within an hour the Third Person of the Godhead had come in. He gave Rees that word in Hebrews 10:19, “Having therefore boldness to enter into the Holiest by the blood of Jesus.” “Immediately,” said Rees, “I was transported into another realm, within that sacred veil where the Father, the Saviour and the Holy Ghost live. There I heard God speaking to me, and I have lived there ever since. When the Holy Ghost enters, He comes in to ‘abide for ever.’